:( :'(

4get abt it tat i gt frenSSS....

no one ever care of me

even i find them first they din even care of me

am i invisible??!??

wad i hv din?

they wan me to hlp them i hlp them

i dun wan anything i juz wan when i'm bored they cn chat wif me n reply me juz rite aftr a few seconds i send the msg to them...is the request very hard to done???

i juz dun und...even my bday no one will wish me

it's better for me to disappear from tis world

i send msg to them they din even reply me once though i send summ credits to them

wad i wan is juz they cn acc me

i juz wan sum real best fren

it is juz a simple thing n no one cn full fill them

WAD LA!

even a dog is better thn me

even i write tis into my blog i think no one will care of this...no one ever visit my blog

wad for i'm doing tis????

i knw...i'm nt a rich n friendly girl so no one will like me

i cn;t compare to those rich girl which everyone stick to her

wad i do no one willl ever remember at all

i'm juz invisible to everyone

everyone ignore me

i juz keep on 4gotten by everyone

wad for staying in tis world?

even if i die non of my fren will sad bcoz i'm juz invisible to everyone

ANGRY WIF IT

Long time din update my bloggie

i update it 2day is juz bcoz i'm boring wif all the science books...thx to my dad...if nt bcoz of him i hv alrdy finish up the science on one midnight...WTH is he thinking? he wan me to gt nt more thn 3 Bs for my final bt dun let me stay up late to study...I dun hv time at all to study except midnight btw morning i cn study bt the com attracting me to ply wif it thn aftrnoon till evening i gt skull n tuitions...10 sumthing only i go bac home n hv juz 1 1/2 hours to study from 10 sumthing to 12...he wan me to slp at 12. WTC! tat lil bit of time din even hlp a lot...WTF is he thinking? UGRH!!!!! I'm sick wif him.....Want me gt gud results bt dun let me study....i think more abt it i'll more angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tmr is the exam n i hvn't finish science ,BM,English literature,history,geography,KH n damn MORAL DEFINISI......ARRRRRRRR.....i'm goin to bcome a maniac!!

====================END STORY OF SCOLDING MY DAD======================

A Happy Day

lepak go buy rubbish

funny izit???

duhhh

spend 30 sumthing to buy rubbish

WTH

bt those rubbish r kinda nice

belanja kiew kiew makan fruit ice

btw a.k.a sour fruit ice

those fruits all oso sour except for the green apples n pineapple

(kiew said it)

firstly,thr is a scoop of valina ice cream bt taste like milk

kiew gave it to me

thn ltr she say nw i knw y they giv me a scoop of ice cream

cox those fruits r sour so they wanna us to eat together wif the ice cream

LOL

hvn't finish eatin then her mum cum dy....

run in the rain n gonna wet through

wad a happy day i gt

a happy day wif kiew , eelin n my daughter*bt juz 4 awhile*

ytd i hv a so damn nice day

wif my bestie

bt it hv gt RUINED

the science results

n

SUMONE

ruined my nice dayyyyy

I hate them

I gt a bad results for my test

so damn bad

no A's for it

i'm goin to gt killed

by my parents n family

Bt when tuition time i hv a nice day wif foong yi

i like to b wif her

she cn make me happy automatically

i hope i cn same skull wif her

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

4gETInG

30~40%

WOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i tHInK i cN 4geT aBt hIm aS sOOn As pOssIbLE

gOd bless mE!!!!!!!!

Problems surrounding around us

Juz bcoz of sum s2p

almost all things around us oso gt problem

those s2p juz knw how to make promblems

cn't they use their mind to thing abt it???

at tt i'm so damn no mood n angry

those ppl still make those noisy sound....i reli wanna whack them

pohwai hv solve the probs ( i think so )

bt me n eelin hvn't.......

i wun ever say sry to her.....forever n ever

IF she still continue to make probs the one who ned to scold her is me nt pohwai

y is everyone hlping her????

IF they dun c hers true face only hlp her if they c i'm sure they wun

jealousy

my jealousy finaly is cumin

So jealous of sumone

They r so pretty n cn get wadever they wan

They r so preety till almost everyone oso listen to them

I not wan their pretty i juz wan u to listen to me or juz care of me n put me in the second place

I knw that is nt simple bt...

hiazz

Ignore~hate

Everyone ignore me

no one cares abt me

Wad's happening to me? wad i hv done to u guys to let u guys ignore me?

my fren ignore me

my family ignore me

my best fren ignore me

my lover ignore me

Everyone ignore me

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!

My frenship hv changed...Wad oso changed

I'm useless for this world

it's better for me to die than staying in this world

I cn't sleep late

I cn't hangout

I cn't play sms in the nite

gt a phone juz like no phone

b4 11 muz switch off

Wth...

thr's no differences of having a phone or no phone

Stupid

My life is changin

included my frenship

family,love n studies

I dun wan it to changed....tat's nt fun at all

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no one will change my life except u

Duh...

I'm waiting 4 u for a long long time

bt it still make me

disappointed

U nw hv bcome my ex bff's bf

I think I should leave u n i'm nt important to u anymore

V cn forever bcome fren bt nt....

JUz bcoz u hv bcome hers bf nw

U hv change my life

U change me into more serious

n nt tat playful

everyday moody bt these few days i was happy cox i'm in the act

nt even my frenz n family cn change my life

bt u cn

Bt y u cn't change me to 4get abt u

it's juz a simple thing

bt i cn't do it

how stubborn am i

I think I should let it go so tat i'm nt suffering

I Broke My Promise Again

I broke my promise again , i promise jor myself tat i will forget u bt i broke it...i'm useless
I hate myself...Y i let myself suffer again??? Y am I so stupid??? I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!

I will forget u

I'm tryin very hard to forget u...I will forget u
U will b delete by me...bt nt totally
U treat me as ur dog ,nope i'm nt even a dog for u
U treat me as a dog i will treat u as a killer juz like yuen says
I WILL FORGET U!!!!!!!!!!!

SADNESS

I hate my life....
I hate my holidays...
I hate myself...
I hate u...
I hate the world...
I hate my family...
I WAN TO DIE...
It meaningless for me to continue my life...
I'm meaningless to ppl...
No one love me...
No ppl care of me...
No one knw I'm suffering for my life...
No one knws tat I'm sad...
No one knws my pretending happy in front of ppl...
Everyone thought I'm a happy guy without sad...
Everyone thought I'm a doll...
Everyone juz knw how to tease me...
Everyone juz knw how to scold me...
Everyone juz knw how bully me...
Everyone juz knw how to tell me to do this n do tat...
I'm helping everyone when they need hlp...
Bt no one hlp me whn i ned hlp...
All i wan is juz a simple thing n u all cn't giv me...
I WAN TO END MY LIFE NW!!!!!!

KInda Boring

Saturday,29 may 2010,11.29a.m.

Kinda boring day...

It was my dad's birthday(means today la)
bt v r nt going to celebrte it....
sad
at home on9...reli boring...
yesterday saw him...
bt i was juz too shy to talk to him....
TT^TT.....
so kesal nw....

爱

被人爱的感觉好不自在....但爱一个人的时候好辛苦哦....爱一个人又不敢讲给那一个你爱的人听....但是又好想跟他讲...好辛苦哦

I broke my own record....

On Sunday I broke two of my records which :-

-Sleep untill 2 in the afternoon
-Sleep at 4.20 in the morning

Can't believe.....tat i can brko my own record......haha

Many things Happen

Many things happen nwadays....

suddenly one of my relatives hav gone sick until needa go in icu....
then my grandmother n grandfather needa go travel bt my realative gone sick n make them mayb can't go...then they now not song....
then my healthy like bcome worst back....

Y SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN??????

Sadness

Yesterday got many things happen....
I make one of my best fren in my class angry of me....
she now dun choi....
I knw tat I hav do wrong already bt it's too late.....

Then They all gt secret dun want to let me knw,nvm but if u dun want tell me urs secret plz dun let me knw....i will feel sad....
Nowadays I bcome not very important to them already....
i'm juz like a ppl who can't see by ppl....
Everytime i'm sad....no one will cheer me up....
I think no one will knw tat i'm sad.....*tearsing*
Everytime the ppl who cheer me up juz left my bro only....
They thought i'm happy everyday ....
They thought I wun sad one bt they r wrong.....

I want frenz tat can cheeer up for me when i'm sad....
I want frenz tat cn care of me......

Non of my fren care of me when i'm sad startiing from this year.....
I felt tat i'm not there (in their heart)
There is no such place for me.....
No one care of me......

WAD IS THE MEANING FOR ME TO CONTINUE LIVING????

Juz now saw tat my best fren say tat "i hate u"
I already knw who is tat....IT's me........
I wanna change place.....
I dun wan to sit wif her...
I knw she hate me n she dun want to sit wif me.....so better I change place.......
Starting from ytd ....my life begin sucks.....my life begin no meaning....

I WAN TO END MY LIFE..........

Tiredness

tired nowadays,need to do folio&homework...
then need to go tuition &art class...
tired la...
then later on got examination...
need to memorize those thing such like sejarah,geogarfi,science,formula of how to solve problems of maths and bla bla bla...
I hope that i can fell sick so that i can rest....
even though juz for a few days...

tired nowadays

I Want....

I want sick.....
I want u to care of me.....
I need u......
I Want

17......

17 days jor.....I didn't meet him....Missed him....

I want faster june...i want june.....

MooDy

Moody now
I can't do already
I reli missed u
dun u KNW !!!!
I knw I'm nt tat gud
I knw I'm nt the one only like u....
I knw I cn't sms wif u again
I ned to wait till u sms me first bt
if I ned to wait u idk when only u sms.....

I reli ned u...

10.56 a.m.,20 April

Family Day....

Yesterday was my family day......
I'm so happy......
Firstly,Me & my family go to McDonald to eat our breakfast
then v all go to my grandma's house....

Latr on ...the whole of the family go to Bkt.Tambun to eat seafood...
but unfortunately,it was not as nice as last time v go to setiawan to eat....
aftr finishing,
We go to Penang for a ride of the ferry n juz simply go around the Penang city then juz go back........
Arivved at Ipoh we go to Greenhill to eat agian.....
I eat a plate of Yong Zhou fried rice..
I shared wif my little bro....
then
at nite it was not so gud bcox i play my hp when all body were sleeping...then suddenly, my dad go to my room n scolded me ....he say if u still like to play wif ur phone till late he'll take over my phone.....wad the la......
N tat's my family day & holiday...
tehehe

Happiness

Yesterday i sms wif one ppl untill 1.20a.m.
yesterday i'm really very happy..^^

Lif3.....Painess.....Hateness......

Lif3 is juz lif3......
every ppl hav different type of life......
I hate my life.........


I hate pain......
today almost whole my body oso pain (muscle)


Today i wake up late then i quickly packed my things then when go down stair
my mum was behind me n yelling me to walk faster....
aiyor......wad the hell la....my legs were so pain n u call me to go walk faster.....
I hate my mum......she dun even care tat whether my legs were pain anot......
She juz care about herself tat make sure she won't late to work.....
For her money is important than me........
I hate her.........

When I heard sum love songs I will think of u ......
I missed u .......
I missed the time v r talking to each other.....
I missed the time v r quarrelling when v were small.....
I missed the time v r playing hide n seek.......
I missed those time.......

I MISSED IT VERY MUCH !!!

Memories

Suddenly dunno why i think back sum of my sweet memories in sudden,
I think back those happy time when I'm in primary tat time .......
Sad things
then Suddenly him
I want to go back tat time we play together coz now we dun hav play anymore coz we're adults
we hav grow bigger bigger n bigger
we cannot like small time like tat
everytime I saw u , we dun hav any conversation not even a hi

...................

Back to friendship

last year I were at 6 dahlia & most of my besties were at 6 kenaga

Now...I was at 1 heron.....firstly I thought kiew kiew will same class wif me geh but lastly dun hav .TT^TT

i were in heron

kiew in hornbill

mei san in oriole(dunno spell correct anot)

nyit leng & weng yuen in osprey

sze yuen & ee lin in partridge

qian , hui lin , jo ann & fiuan in pitta ........

all not wif me

in heron only mun mun & wei yan which i know the most but others not really
luckily mun mun & wei yan same clas wif me if not i will boring until die....
I hope next year will hav one of my besties same class wif me .......

This year we are not going to hav children's' day anymore coz we are not children anymore ...so .....I'm still wondering wad r we going to do...........this year's celebration was really not same as last year......

* I hope aftr taking the paper for our mid term no one will cry for it......especially wei yan , qian , jo ann coz they are the one who cry for march test

I hate my life nowadays especially in studies,

I felt very 'sen fu'most of my best frenz juz keep on saying about mine results,

I dunno why they study so hard but they couldn't get it but me ,

I juz study 1 hour& the half before test but y i can get it ????

i tell them to do this they dun listen to me but go do other things tat i dun tell them to do I dunno y they r so panic & scared when they are studying???

I dun felt scared when test so i wanna to tell them to relax & enjoy when studying,i felt tat they dunno how to study smart but only know how to study hard

Especially when aftr scince test they go blame me bcoz I give qian they tips tat it will most propably got wad will come out but dun giv them !!!!

wad la !!!!

Y ?????

I want to tell them tat firstly is qian ask me so i bring to her but they dun ask me how i know they want it ????

When tat time I was really angry but i dun want to show tat i'm angry n juz berpura-pura happy only ,

Y they juz keep on saying my marks/results but dun say kiew's ????

They dun giv kiew got more marks than me gar.

& yesterday tuition I really angry of qian coz when geografi teacher say tat if u wanna und.

bentuk muka bumi di Malaysia

u must know where is then negeri in Malysia if not u won't und. the topic so teacher told us to drawthe map of Malaysia so we juz follow wad she told us to do.

Tat is the time wad I was really angry of it aftr I draw finish qian havn't
Aftr I finish doing she only finish drawing then aftr tat she say tat she dunno then i say

"dun say u dunno where u live where is Perak "
then she go answer me bac tat she really dunno wor......tat time i felt like .....

I wanna kill her I want to ask wad she learn when standrand 4 tat time ,

ah i know already wad she learn when tat time tat time she juz learn fei lun hai so now she dun even know where is
Perak n she dare to say tat she only know where is Pulau Pinang ...

OMG !!!! I really want to die .....i dun want she felt sad so i oso dun want to say her so much already .............

*Sry if qian saw it , I does mean to hurt u but I juz wanna say all these to u but I scared to hurt u so I juz write here !! So sry if I hav hurt sum one else which I had hurted in my blog .

ʞuıɥʇ u ʞuıɥʇ u ʞuıɥʇ

ʇ˙ʇ ¡¡¡ ɯıɥ ɟo ƃuıʞuıɥʇ doʇs ʇ,uɐɔ znɾ ǝɯ ǝʞɐɯ˙˙˙˙ɹoʎıɐ˙˙˙˙˙˙˙˙ɐן ɯıɥ ƃuıʎɐs uo dǝǝʞ znɾ ʎǝɥʇ ʎɐpoʇ

H4ppiNesS

Yesterday i got my first handphone which really belongs to in my life......
^^
but actually i wanna ask his handphone number but i'm scared so at last i oso didn't ask . haha !!!
i got a number which is 010 ge !!!

HAPPY !!!!

Damn

yesterday go jj wif frenz but my bro got go oso lar but not wif us is wif his frenz ,
i saw him lar ......damn it ,
y tat time i saw him ????
i wanna saw huim he dun appear but when i dun wanna saw him he appear !!!
haiz.....

Sadness

Such a sad day these days i hav coz i get scolded evryday........y can't those ppl juz stop scolding me ??? i hate them !!!! when 9 sumthing ...........i get scolded by my grandma ..........actually it is not only scold is scold + 'wat'

Boring , Happy & Needa control myself

Boring :-

agian holiday !!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!! I hate holidays coz it is very very boring !!!!!!
Normally i will walk around & around the house all the day + on9-ing + listening to songs + saying to everyone tat i'm very boring like '怕死没有人知道我好闷将' (scared till no one knows tat i'm boring)+suddenly make my bro angry then fight wif me + eating but now i'm dieting so cannot eat + watching yv but nothg to see & lastly , go hangout wif frenz but not everyday la .

Happy :-

Most of the day I chat wif him !! Teheh ^^ happy XP

Needa control myself :-

1) Dunno y these days i like to say one bad words ??
2) Needa control myself from typing '!!!!!!!!!!' bcoz of the ee lin .....haizz..........

DUNNO WAD'S GOING ON NOW !!!!!!!!!!

dunno wad's going on now on him ??? really wanna know it !!!!!!!!!!!

haizzz...............need to study then now dunno y suddenly care of him ???

aiya dun care la me ........i juz study n take my test properly then only i care him la !!!!!!!!!

Scariness , Happiness , Excitedness & Boringness

Scariness

Next week I'm going to take my first secondary exam !!!!!!!!!
OMG !!!!!!!!!!


I'm so scared la !!!!!!!!


Although Malay ,mathematics & English dun hav paper 2 , science got paper 2 la !!!!!!
I'm quite scared of science cox the science is making me mad + boring when
teacher is teaching + I'm doing the homework like last night !!!!!!!!




Happiness

Such happy cox my dad says he mayb will take me go choose my first belongs to me , handphone !!!!!!!


but he told to me tat buy the cheap ones (abt 5 hundred around or 6 hundred around ones) so tat we can apply the Internet line in our home !!!!!!!!


But I agree la !!!!!!

LoLz !!!!!!!!!!


Excitedness

Quite excited la cox April our skull will having pesta ria , i hope tat , tat person can go la !!!!!! Cox I'm quite missed him ge la !!!!

LoLz !!!!!!!!!!!!


Boringness

This two months I'm very boring when I'm studying but not before skull la !!! juz like yesterday ours group again become sakgai bac coz yesterday was very very funny !!! especially qian !!!!!

Maybe lonely or maybe happy

today i choose "maybe lonely or maybe happy" bcox
no one at the home from morning till night .I will b the one who in
charge of the home from now till night !!!!

dunno now i'm lonely or happy cox ................................i can
open everything i like but no one can share wif me !!!!
haizz.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wad A Boring CNY !!!!!

Yor....really boring lar , all these days !!!! Other than Gambling I hav nthg to do !!!!!
So Boring Lar !!!!!

Qian jiu gud la , coz she can go Cameron Highland !!!! But I dun like go Cameron
Highland coz there is boring.At there other
than buying strawberries , flower ,
drink tea n ......... nthg
else can do
want !!!

Tonight I oso dunno wad to do . Got net but nthg to do wif the net , no net got ,many
things to do . Haizz.......... wad a boring ppl doing boring
things !!!!

New lifestyle in 2010 !!!

Boring la all these days !!!! Everyday tat I can done are woke up , eat , go to skull ,chat wif frenz for juz an hour or long a bit but not like last time . TT^TT.
N oso now I know tat tat person already hav a gf n I hav no more chance !!! T.T

HELP !!!! So Boring la !!!!!